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Last updated: 19 October 2026

On the internet, I go by Lee Lacaille-Xing. I'm a perpetually-tired writer, artist, and lapsed conlanger.

I predominantly use the name selenicseas online. If you see a selenicseas elsewhere on the internet, it's me. I'm pretty sure no one else is using this username.

I also have:What I post here:
  • Reviews, predominantly of video games (archive)
  • Recommendations of what I've been reading (archive)
  • Monthly summaries detailing my creative work and other goals (archive)
  • Thoughts on and about writing and other creative processes
This hasn't been a great week for writing! I started feeling under the weather on the 2nd and that continued for most of the week. I'm mostly feeling better now, so I have some catching up to do. My goal for the month is 5,000 words, and I'm at 819 this morning.

I did manage to get the last of the worldbuilding done for my story, so now I'm working on outlining! And, honestly, putting events in order is a little harder than I thought it was going to be, though that may have a little to do with my brain still being a little fried from this week.
Spoilers for Control Resonant, Alan Wake, and Alan Wake 2 below.

( Click here for spoilers! )
What I finished reading

I finished On the Origin of Species last week…finally. That took absolutely forever. I think it'll be a while before I read any more scientific theses.

What I'm currently reading

I am reading 2312 by Kim Stanely Robinson. It's much easier to read, but I unfortunately haven't had all that much time to read it. It will probably take another week to finish, at least.

What I plan on reading next

It's going to be Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell by Susanna Clarke.
Mild spoilers for the taxi sidequest in Control Resonant and lots of wild theorizing below.
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The second part of this month was exceptionally busy due to the announcement of Pillowfort's closure and me scrambling to port over a bunch of my posts. That unfortunately sucked up a lot of time that I had planned on using to outline Layer 4.

I wrote 5,464 words out of a goal of 5,000, bring my yearly total to 99,245. I'm less than 1000 words away from reaching my yearly goal of 100,000!

I didn't read as much as I wanted to this month. I am absolutely blaming Charles Darwin for this. On the Origin of Species is very long and kept putting me to sleep earlier than planned every time I read it in the evening before going to bed.

Books I did finish are:
  • Banned Book Club by Kim Hyun Sook and Ryan Estrada
  • Handbook of Chinese Mythology by Yang Lihui and An Deming
  • Project Hail Mary by Andy Weir
  • On the Origin of Species by Charles Darwin
I planned on watching a couple of horror movies and finishing Twin Peaks: The Return, but only ended up watching Event Horizon. I didn't watch anything else because I was too busy playing video games. I spent the whole month playing Control Resonant. I finished my first playthrough of the game and now I'm running around finding collectibles I missed.

I'm hoping that November will be calmer so I can read a few more books and watch some movies. Given how the last few months have been excessively busy, I don't know how realistic that hope is.
Neotropic cormorant standing in front of a rock in front of a Ring-necked duck and an unidentified other duck in the water.

Neotropic cormorant standing in front of a rock in front of a Ring-necked duck and an unidentified other duck in the water. I've seen these cormorants for a while and wasn't able to identify them until today. That one duck in the back, though...it mystifies me. The Merlin Bird ID isn't helping, either.

Great egret in a tree.

Great egret in a tree. There were a couple at this one particular pond and this particular one kept going from the shore to a tree.

A flock of pelicans in the water.

A flock of pelicans in the water. They were pretty far away and moved around fast enough that I couldn't get any decent photos of them.

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I've finished archiving my Pillowfort posts! That was a lot of work to do manually. I didn't realize that posts with dates years in the past would show up on the Reading page. I was very confused as to how people were finding those posts until I subscribed to my own journal. Sorry for the spam!

I also figured out how to make the cut tags work properly. A couple of posts I made in September and early October now have cut tags, including the one where the cut tags were so horribly borked at first that I removed them entirely.

Since I'm going to be making a lot of theory posts about games in the Remedyverse, I added a tag specifically for all of my probably insane theorizing: tim's whiteboard. There are at least two posts scheduled for next week already. I was up late last night writing one of them.

I think I've followed everyone who I was following back on Pillowfort. Might need to check my following list there and see if I've missed anyone.

I've been updating my website's Links Out page and still have a lot more to add! There are plenty of resources I've gathered from Pillowfort that I've neglected adding out of sheer laziness. I will hopefully have time to make those updates this weekend, since we're supposed to get an extreme amount of rain and I won't want to go anywhere because of it.
What I finished reading

Project Hail Mary
by Andy Weir.

What I'm currently reading


Believe it or not, it's still On the Origin of Species. I actually don't have all that much left of it. I'll be done by the end of the month.

What I plan on reading next

It will be either 2312 by Kim Stanley Robinson or Jonathan Strange & Mr. Norrell by Susanna Clarke. Leaning toward 2312 solely because it's shorter.
I'm getting close to the end of the game. Still got a couple of sidequests and tasks to finish up, and there's a Resonant I haven't even tried to find yet, but I think I might save that for the postgame.

( Spoilers for the sidequest Pope's Research below. )
What I finished reading

Handbook of Chinese Mythology by Yang Lihui and An Deming. It was much more scholarly than I expected.

What I'm currently reading

I'm still making my way through On the Origin of Species. I will be surprised if I finish it before the end of the month.

I also started reading Project Hail Mary by Andy Weir because I need something easy to read right now.

What I plan on reading next

Not sure. I think both books will take me until the end of the month to finish. I'll pick something from my TBR pile at the beginning of November.
So, Pillowfort users yesterday got an update that Pillowfort will be shutting down on December 4th. I'm really sad to see it go! Pillowfort was basically my home on the Internet for the past eight years. I am definitely going to miss the community we had there.

Just like I did with Wordpress, I will be archiving some of my Pillowfort posts here. Once I'm done with all of that, I'll make another post with links to everything I archived.

Remembering

Oct. 19th, 2026 05:38 am
selenicseas: my own art of myself (Default)
Have you ever forgotten a word so hard it ceased to exist?

Or maybe the word never existed in the first place. That's probably the most likely scenario here. I thought a word existed but it never really did, and that's why despite looking through dozens of thesauruses and dictionaries over the past two decades, I haven't found the forgotten word.

I don't know why I remembered this all of a sudden. Maybe because I'm writing again. Maybe I could work this into a future story.

For anyone who's wondering, the missing word is a synonym for "impressment" – specifically, the kind the British Navy was engaged in.

No spoilers for the plot of Control Resonant here, just discussion about a possible teaser for a future Remedy game.

I was wandering around the Evacuation Zone, looking for a camera, and found an interesting apartment that had a blinking lamp outside of it.
 

( Potential spoiler content below )
I suspect a few of these questions will be answered once I finish Resonant, but I want to get all of this written down now before I forget something. I'm sure I've forgotten some things already.

Since there are spoilers for all Remedyverse games, all questions are hidden below the read more.

( Spoilers past this line! )
Originally posted to Pillowfort on 7 October 2026

Fix Your Heart or Die on a theater marquee.

"When you became Denise, I told all of your colleagues, those clown comics, to fix their hearts or die." - from Twin Peaks: The Return episode 4

Spotted this Twin Peaks/trans rights reference on one of the theater marquees in the West Excursion Zone.
Originally posted to Pillowfort on 7 October 2026

What I finished reading

I wanted to get something done this past week, so I started and finished Banned Book Club by Kim Hyun Sook and Ryan Estrada.

What I'm currently reading

It's still On the Origin of Species. I'm going through it very slowly.

I'm also reading Handbook of Chinese Mythology by Yang Lihui and An Deming. This one's a little easier to read. And by a little I mean a lot. It's got an introduction that goes over the types of myths, their functions in a culture, and who passes the myths on from generation to generation.

What I plan on reading next

I'll make that decision once I'm closer to finishing On the Origin of Species.
I'm not very far into the game, I think, and I'm sure I'll get real answers to my questions later on, but I still want to write this down now so I can come back to it later and see how off-base/correct I was. Also, don't tell me if I guessed correctly! I want to learn things on my own.

There are spoilers past this point, mostly for the prologue and documents you can find in the starting area. Read at your own risk.

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A screenshot of the Dimensional Research: Slide Repairs document.

It looks like efforts to reconstitute the slides were unsuccessful, but what if she managed to create a new slide outright? In the vision Dylan saw of her before fighting the Artist, Jesse explained that she was going to use the Slide Projector to go into another world and fix the problems caused by the Hiss (and other things).

That can't happen if she doesn't have a usable slide, so I'm guessing at some point she was able to create one. And then she used the Slide Projector and went through to another world, where she's…fixing faults, or something, at the cost of her own memories. I've only seen the first vision. I don't have enough information to determine what she's really doing.

And something about this is causing the Patterning. Creating the slide? Using the Slide Projector? It came from a slide, like Polaris and the Hiss?

The only problem with this idea is that the Patterning came from outside the Oldest House, and there's been no communication with the outside world for the past seven years. Some part of the outside world knew that the AWE was going to happen – per Barry's emails in Alan Wake 2, the Blessed Organization knew that something was going to happen a few years in the future from 2023. 

Even after the ARG, and knowing that the Blessed have been creating Altered Items, I don't actually think they're responsible for the Patterning. It doesn't quite seem to be their MO to cause Altered World Events.

I still think Jesse is somehow responsible for the Patterning. Or she is the Pattern, maybe. That would possibly explain why the Board referred to her as the Final Boss. She's become a Resonant Entity or something similar. She did basically become the new Polaris at the end of the previous game, so that wouldn't surprise me too much.

Hours played: 27 hours

I thought this was going to be a shorter game, but that wasn't the case at all. It took me 27 hours to complete, and that's without doing all of the sidequests.

This is the first Zelda game where you actually get to play as Zelda, and I had a lot of fun with it. Rather than using weapons like Link, she uses echoes (summons) that fight for her. There is a special form where she gets access to a sword, bow, and bombs, but it has an energy meter and runts out quickly. It also goes away near the end of the game, since those things actually belong to Link.

I liked most of the dungeons, though the last one I did (in Eldin Volcano) had a much easier boss than all of the other dungeons. Though I may be thinking that because I had the whole rest of the game to get used to the dungeons.

The final boss fight had so many stages and I didn't die once! I did have to use a lot of healing items, which aren't possible to create in the final area.

I think that's my major criticism – consumables for healing and buffs can only be created in certain locations around the overworld, and hearts very rarely drop from pots and grass. If you go into an area without healing, you're going to have a rough time. There is a way to heal without items, but it isn't very accessible in the middle of a fight.

Zelda and Link stand in front of the Triforce.
 

September was not a great month for anything. So many things came up, some of which I mentioned in a post last week. A significant part of my free time was dedicated to those issues, a significant chunk of my remaining free time – which would normally be dedicated to hobbies – was instead spent on vegetating.

I wrote 5,710 words out of a goal of 5,000. That brings me up to 93,790 for the year. I did not finish the outline for The Forest of Anomalies, as the last few days of the month was spent hurriedly writing reviews and other things.

I massively slowed down on reading this month, partially because I picked longer books and partially because I didn't actually have that much time to read:
  • Quantum Break: Zero State by Cam Rogers
  • Spillover: Animal Infections and the Next Human Pandemic by David Quammen
  • The Immortal Life of Henrietta Lacks by Rebecca Skloot
I did watch a few more movies than expected, all of which were on my watchlist:
•    Guns Akimbo
•    Horns
•    Swiss Army Man

As for video games, I finished The Legend of Zelda: Echoes of Wisdom, started playing Control Resonant, and wrote reviews for both. The Echoes of Wisdom review goes up this Friday.

I really hope next month will be much less hectic.
Nonfiction
  • Ace: What Asexuality Reveals about Desire, Society, and the Meaning of Sex by Angela Chen
  • Spillover: Animal Infections and the Next Human Pandemic by David Quammen

Novels
  • The Years of Rice and Salt by Kim Stanley Robinson

Short Fiction

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